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Thursday, June 25, 2020

They made me afraid of everything! Why don't I tell the truth about myself?

Sophie's Choice by William Styron

Spoiler Alert: Plot Summary
Sophie's Choice is about surviving the impossible, tolerating the intolerable, and finding small joys when you can until you simply can't anymore. The story is narrated not by Sophie herself, but by a gentleman we know as Stingo (a nickname from his boyhood) who has just recently moved to Brooklyn, NY, in the late 1940s to pursue his career as a writer. Stingo had been working for a publisher (McGraw-Hill) but left because he was feeling uninspired and a bit alien (see comments below re: hats) and he encounters Sophie and her lover/next-door neighbor, Nathan, because they occupy the rooms directly above his own. In fact, in what will become a larger theme in the novel, Stingo hears the couple having extremely loud (and frequent) sex. While he wants to resent them for distracting him from his writerly pursuits, he soon becomes embedded in their intimate coterie. 

The actual events of the book take up very little time (it takes place in the course of one summer) but Sophie's history (and Stingo's and Nathan's) unravel as the story progresses, revealing secrets that redefine decades. While Nathan and Stingo are American, Sophie is Polish, and it becomes clear early on that she was imprisoned at Auschwitz (and later Birkenau). After first casting herself (and her family) in the best light possible (i.e., we worked to protect and save Jews from persecution), it becomes clear that her father and husband were both deeply Anti-Semitic, and Sophie herself struggled to find her place politically. She lived with Polish resistance members, but hesitated to dive into the movement because, as it turns out, she had not one, but two small children: a son, Jan, and a daughter, Eva. Sophie's unwillingness to pick a side is irrelevant in the end because she gets arrested by association with her roommates, and she and her children are put on trains to the camps. 

The choice, which is revealed only near the end of the book, is this: a drunk SS guard told her as she dismounted the train that because she was Polish and pretty (but not Jewish) she could choose one of her children to keep. She tries to refuse, but the only alternative is that both children are sent to the gas chamber. Ultimately, she picks her daughter Eva, and her son Jan never makes it out of the camp. She had hoped at one point that seducing a different guard and sharing her family's previous anti-Semitism would save Jan and get him freed from the camp (to be sent to a German family and raised as a Nazi; not great but better than dead, in Sophie's eyes) but it seems that this promise is never actualized, and Sophie is rebuffed by the guard. 

In the end, only Sophie survives the camp, and her guilt consumes her and drives her directly into the abusive, paranoid schizophrenic, drug-abusing arms of Nathan, a Jew. Their relationship (which reminded me a great deal of the roller coaster in This Side of Paradise) follows a kind of parabolic arc of highs and lows and ultimately ends in their mutual suicide.
Spoiler Over: Continue Here

Well blobbists, there you have it! I can't say this one was an upper, but I did, on the whole, greatly enjoy reading it. There was more sex (or rather, references to things relating to sex; perhaps it's better to say fixation on the lack of sex) than I really felt like I needed to get the picture, but I may still be a prude in this department, so I will reserve judgement in that area. Here's what I thought about the rest of it!

Stingo, the Southern writer
Stingo was interesting character; he reminded me of a few other protagonists, and had an interesting sort of foil, not-taking-up-too-much-space kind of quality to his character. I did, on the whole, find him to be likable, and enjoyed his droll humor. Here are a few snapshots to paint the picture.
  • Less shy than simply proudly withdrawn, I lacked both the opportunity and the initiative to make friends. I loved this line. I don't know if I'd say I'm proudly withdrawn, but I do feel sometimes that I lack both the opportunity and the initiative to make (new) friends. For some reason, it also reminded me of this line from Pale Fire when Shade describes himself: Asthmatic, lame and fat, I never bounced a ball or swung a bat. Something about the layout of the sentences, maybe.
  • Being also by habit a late riser, I await the joys of 'brunch'. Yes. I want brunch every day.
Stingo's boss at the publishing house has some particular complaints about him, which I found to be highly amusing: 
  • Everyone at McGraw-Hill wears a hat.
  • It is not wise for a McGraw-Hill employee to be seen with a copy of the New York Post.
There was (to me) an unexpected amount of racial exploration in Stingo's character. While I've read several Black authors who explicitly handle race in the early 20th century, I find it rare for white authors to do so without outright racism, deep prejudice, or a total lack of candor and depth. I was pleasantly surprised by Styron's exploration of this, and while it was by no means perfect, it's one of the things I will remember most (and like most) about the work. 

Stingo is living off of a family inheritance that he receives much delayed from his father, and it turns out the money is from his Virginia family selling a slave, Artiste, down South, for supposedly ogling a woman. Stingo keeps the money (but considers tithing at least a portion to the NAACP) and generally doesn't feel too bad about it because he considers himself to be pretty broke and in need. I thought it was a fascinating example of a really tangible 'cost' from slavery, and it made me think (again) about how necessary reparations are. In my opinion, we should work to trace our financial impact (and the future wealth we've withheld) from Black folks across the years, and this math, however complicated or incomplete, should be factored. It can never erase or excuse the tradition of slavery and the aspects of American culture it has informed and defined, but it can at least express contrition and acknowledge the harm. 

Stingo gets into a fair amount of fights with Nathan about Northern vs. Southern existence, and Nathan considers Southerners to be despicable racists. He brings up the story of Bobby Weed, who I think is a referent to Emmett Till, a 14-year-old  boy who supposedly whistled at a white woman and was brutally tortured and killed by white men as retaliation in 1955. The exact timing doesn't fit, which may be why Styron uses a stand-in name, but the particulars are much the same. I thought this idea of reckoning with slavery as a tradition was really artfully explored. Here are some snippets:

Nathan, to Stingo: Can't you see the truth about yourself? About the South? 

On Northern vs. Southern whiteness: At that time the drowsing black behemoth, although beginning to stir, was still not regarded as much of a Northern problem. 

Stingo, on being a Southerner: Suddenly sick with a past and a place and a heritage that I could neither believe in nor fathom.

As a northern white woman, I have certainly felt the after-effects of this kind of 'blame the South' mentality. As a young woman, I think I felt a kind of absolution from the evils of slavery because it seemed deeply unlikely that my ancestors had owned any or been involved in the evils of the trade. Now I have come to understand the deeply intrinsic layers of slavery and the ways in which they permeated every fiber of American life (then and now, cloth metaphor intended) and while I still have a great deal of work to do, I have started to cultivate a curiosity about how to do better as a white woman, as a northerner, and as an educator.

As I mentioned, there was quite a bit of sexual tension in the book; it reminded me of Humbert Humbert in a way that was both slightly amusing and somewhat disturbing. Here's how Stingo describes himself:
  • I was a recumbent six-foot-long erogenous zone.
  • I perspired in the human cocoon of my angst.
Nathan, the glowering golem who works for Pfizer
I loved this description of Nathan, in part because it was so perfect, and in part because it reminded me of the scene in Stranger than Fiction when Dustin Hoffman asks Will Ferrell if he could possibly be a golem and then later asks, Aren't you relieved to hear you're not a golem? Nathan certainly contains a kind of magic, and his mood (and which drugs he's using) determine whether he uses that magic for good or for ill. Nathan's particularities are revealed slowly throughout the novel, and ultimately it seems that Sophie is both deeply in love with Nathan but also perhaps punishing herself for her guilt by staying in the relationship, which is clearly wildly abusive and tumultuous. 

While Nathan doesn't know Sophie's full history, his questioning triggers Sophie's continuous guilt: 

Nathan, to Sophie: Tell me why it is, oh beauteous Zawistowska, that you inhabit the land of the living.
and later: You played footsie with the SS, didn't you? Isn't that how you got out of Auschwitz?

Stingo, on Nathan, to Sophie: How could anybody do that to you? How could anyone love you and be so unbelievably cruel?

I thought Styron's explanations not only of the camps but also the ways in which they were and weren't palpable to the American populace were fascinating. (Horrifying, yes, but also informative.) He talks about how, for Nathan, though he saw the wastrel that Sophie had become when he first met her and helped to bring her back to health, the camps weren't real until the news reels and footage of the camps made their way to the States. 

Until now he simply had not allowed himself to believe. How many things are like that for us, blobbists? How much do we demand to see before we allow ourselves to believe? I thought of police brutality, and the continuous murder of black people at the hands of the police, and how video and pictures and patterns over and over and over are somehow still not enough to make some people allow themselves to believe in the truth and the violence and the trauma of racism. 

I haven't gone into particulars, but Nathan beats Sophie when he is in a rage (or high, or having a spell, or all the above) and nearly kills her several times before their mutual suicide. If you're wondering why Stingo and Sophie let him back in after these events, I offer you this: 

On Nathan's return: His absence and his whereabouts did not seem to matter; in the same way, his devastating attractiveness made it seem of small importance that he had recently reviled Sophie and me in such an outpouring of animosity and spite that it had made us both physically ill. Are there people like this in your life, readers? People whose attractiveness (not necessarily physical) pulls them magnetically back into their orbit, despite all the alarms and warning bells? 

On the absurd: On the day Sophie arrived at Auschwitz, the forsythia was in bloom, and Stingo was eating bananas in Raleigh, North Carolina.

One of the other things that struck me was this reflective quality of Stingo's to imagine where he was and what he was doing when particular tragic events were taking place for Sophie. I can't spend too much time thinking like this because I find it overwhelming, but I do often wonder what atrocities are taking place while I am drinking a coffee, or taking a stroll. I want to believe that in any moment, only good things are happening for everyone, but I know that this isn't true. It reminded me of how when the pandemic first started and I was forced to spend even more time in my home, I read of the surge in domestic violence cases because of women and other folks stuck with their abusers. I know, dark thoughts but there they are. On the plus side, I've read about a surge in supports and attempts to help people navigate the various darknesses that the pandemic has wrought, so that's something at least. 

Sophie, the survivor, the lover, the permanent Pole
Sophie's character is gorgeously nuanced. Whether it was understanding...

How she could be in an abusive relationship:
I love Nathan so much that it hurts my heart - and maybe we should not do such a thing as compare one love with another.

How she could even begin to process the Holocausts:
I have learned to cry again, and I think perhaps that means that I am a human being again. Perhaps that at least. A piece of a human being, but yes, a human being.

How music played a role in her life: 
It was music that helped save her.

We will have music where we're going, then, Stingo. I wouldn't be able to last long without music.

How she felt about Nathan's friends who complained about life's small nuisances: 
I hate this type of unearned unhappiness!

How she thought: 
She paused, in sequence groping for then finding the right word in French, Polish, German, and Russian, but totally at sea in English.

How she suffered: 
You should have let me drown, Stingo. No one is filled with such badness. No one! No one has such badness.

Or how she chose: 
Suppose I had chosen Jan to go...to go to the left instead of Eva. Would that have changed anything?

Styron made Sophie thoughtful, imperfect, complex, and whole. I was struck by this line in particular: 

Punishment by association, retribution through chance occurrence. She kept saying to herself: I don't belong here. Because it reminded me of Irène Némirovsky's attitude toward being taken to the concentration camps. It's disturbing and unsettling to think about how, amidst the horror of that moment, people tried to rationalize the logic of it. As if anyone 'belonged' there; as if anyone should have been tortured or murdered or treated as less than nothing. No one belonged there. Is it survival instinct, escapism, or an attempt at absolution? What drives this? 

Wanda, the revolutionary, the resistance fighter
For every moment where Sophie waffles over where she stands, there's Wanda, her roommate, a Polish woman willing to stand up against anti-Semitism. Here are a few great Wanda lines:

To Sophie: You can no longer treat us this way. You have to assume responsibility, Zosia [Sophie]. You've come to the place where you can no longer fool around like this, you have to make a choice!

On helping the Jewish community as a non-Jewish Pole: Whether it does or doesn't save you, I for one will be satisfied that we tried - through our suffering, and probably even our own deaths.

To the Jews, who wonder about her commitment to fighting Nazis: Do you think when they finish with you Jews they're going to dust off their hands and stop murdering and make their peace with the world? You underestimate their evil if you have such a delusion. Because once they finish you off they're going to come and get me. Wanda is not ultimately motivated by her own survival (in fact, she dies a brutal death in Auschwitz, which is another thing Sophie feels guilty for, as she did not do her utmost to support Wanda's resistance efforts in the camp), but this logic feels applicable to so many things. Imagine any perpetration of evil - does it just stop and hang up its hat when it has erased and brutalized one group? Conquerors, imperialists, fascists - they snowball forward with perpetual motion. They do not stop on their own; they must be stopped by people like you and me, reader. 

Poland and the American South
Well, this blob has gotten long, but it deserved the space. I'll leave you with one more interesting bit - the comparison of Poland to the American South. For the sake of this passage, we'll assume the 'race' in question is the Jewish race, though we know race is a construct and Judaism can be a religion, an ethnicity, an identity, and more. 

There is a sinister zone of likeness between Poland and the American South which, although anything but superficial, causes the two cultures to blend so perfectly together as to seem almost one in their shared extravagance - and that has to do with the matter of race, which in both worlds has produced centuries-long, all-encompassing nightmare spells of schizophrenia. In Poland and the South the abiding presence of race has created at the same time instant cruelty and compassion, bigotry and understanding, enmity and fellowship, exploitation and sacrifice, searing hatred and hopeless love.

And then later, just so we don't fall into the same trap we mentioned before of absolving the North, this line, from Stingo's father: 

Someday - mark my word - it will be clearly demonstrated that the North is every bit as steeped in prejudice as the South, if not more so.

Words that were new to me
anchorite - someone who, for religious reasons, withdraws from secular society so as to be able to lead an intensely prayer-oriented, ascetic life; a religious recluse

lucremoney, especially when regarded as sordid or distasteful or gained in a dishonorable way (for Mama Kitty - from the Latin, lucrum - profit, advantage, love of gain, avarice)

marmoreal - made of or likened to marble (I'm not gonna lie, I thought this had something to do with marmots.)

thaumaturge - a worker of wonders and performer of miracles; a magician (for Mr. Portokalos, this is from the Greek for working marvels)

Lines I Liked
  • Beneath all the jollity, the tenderness, the solicitude, I sensed a disturbing tension in the room.
  • In the angled windowpane she saw the reflection of her pale face beneath the checkered scarf, below this the blue and white stripes of her coarse prisoner's smock; blinking, weeping, gazing straight through her own diaphanous image, she glimpsed the magical white horse again, grazing now, the meadow, the sheep beyond, and further still, as if at the very edge of the world, the rim of the drab gray autumnal woods, transmuted by the music's incandescence into a towering frieze of withering but majestic foliage, implausibly beautiful, aglow with some immanent grace.
  • Stingo's dad, to Stingo, on visiting NYC - Your youth, I suppose, that wonderful flexibility of your age that allows you to be beguiled by, rather than devoured by, this octopus of a city. Lol. That's how I feel literally every time I visit my friends in NYC.
  • The spell of the South was upon me like a minor ecstasy, or a major heartache. This might be one of my all-time favorite lines from a book. I thought about using it for the title of this blob, but it didn't really encapsulate the full story as well as the line of Sophie's that I chose.
  • I thought that Sophie would not have wanted a priest or any ministrations of her church - perhaps a blasphemous assumption, and one that consigned Sophie to hell, but I was certain (and still am) that I was correct. In the afterlife Sophie would be able to endure any hell.
Referents and Reverberations
While this book reminded me of many books that came before and after, some of which I've already mentioned earlier, there's just one moment that stood out to me. 

This line, about Auschwitz:

Next to food and privacy, the lack of sleep was one of the camp's leading and universal deficiencies; sought by all with a greed that approached lust, sleep allowed the only sure escape from the ever-abiding torment, and strangely enough (or perhaps not so strangely) usually brought people pleasant dreams, for as Sophie observed to me once, people so close to madness would be driven utterly mad if, escaping a nightmare, they confronted still another in their slumber. 

Reminded me of one of my favorite lines from Proust, when the narrator is a little boy and he wakes from a nightmare: 

A smile of joy, of pious thanksgiving to God who is pleased to grant that life shall be less cruel than our dreams. Perhaps in Sophie's case, thanksgiving that dreams are less cruel than our life. 

Well, friends, that brings me to the end of this blob. I don't have anything sweet to leave you with, so instead I'll leave you with this, a reflection from Stingo: 

Someday I will understand Auschwitz. This was a brave statement but innocently absurd. No one will ever understand Auschwitz. What I might have set down with more accuracy would have been: Someday I will write about Sophie's life and death, and thereby help demonstrate how absolute evil is never extinguished from the world.

I write not to remind us that evil can never be extinguished, but to ardently hope that we can be the ones who work to snuff it out, day after day, and night after night. May you have pleasant dreams, but also pleasant realities. 

Keep each other safe, keep faith, Black Lives Matter, love one another. I'm off to read Mar's Favorite Color.  

Saturday, June 13, 2020

Once gone, who shall find me?

Kim by Rudyard Kipling

Spoiler Alert: Plot Summary
Kim(ball O'Hara) is a young boy growing up in India in the late 19th century. He has no current family to speak of, since his Irish parents both died when he was young, and so the country of India has been left to raise him. When we first encounter him, he is navigating the world as a 'native' Indian, in the sense that he does not interact with or travel with white/English people, but rather passes his time with a variety of Indian characters of various ethnic and religious persuasions. He begins a quest with a lama, who is looking for a particular river which contains enlightenment (you know, this river has freshwater, that one has enlightenment) but the quest is interrupted when Kim is placed in close quarters with Englishmen, who decide he must be returned the English and raised as a 'sahib'. Kim is not at all interested in this plan, but the lama decides it will be good for him, so he sponsors Kim's education at a British school. Over the years, Kim makes various sojourns away from the school and that way of life, disguising himself as a non-Sahib, and he even makes an agreement with one of the Englishmen who is taking care of him: Kim will attend school and learn to become a 'good Sahib' if he can do whatever he likes on his holidays, and roam India far and wide. The Englishman is not particularly thrilled with this plan, but he acquiesces, and so passes the boyhood and journey into manhood of Kim. Kim encounters other men who are playing 'the Great Game', which is the conflict between Russia and Britain over Afghanistan, and, transfixed by the intrigue, he's desperate to join. So Kim emerges from school to rejoin his lama on their quest, but he is also something of a spy, working on secret projects as part of the Great Game. After a variety of adventures, the lama decides that their quest for enlightenment is over, and Kim is left to take on the world. 
Spoiler Over: Continue Here

Hello, dear blobbists! 

It's been some time since my last post, and much has happened here and abroad. It felt incongruous to be reading Kim in the midst of this moment, since it's both temporally removed and takes place on a different continent, but as usual, I found myself enjoying the opportunity to inhabit a different space for a time, and reflect on how its sameness and its difference from my own time. 

On the whole, I liked Kim. I had a vague notion in my head that Kipling was racist, so I wasn't sure how to approach it, and while I agree there are certainly opinions, expressions, and terms that are deeply racist, I felt it still had a lot to offer as a narrative. So we'll put it in the 'problematic, but I liked it' category. My thoughts, in no real order: 

On whiteness
If you haven't been living under a rock for the last month (or decade, or century) then you've likely been thinking about race, and what it means to our lived experience. I have to admit, I was super surprised when I read the line early on: 'Kim was white.' I think I thought Kim was going to be this young Indian boy, and what was going to be problematic was that Kipling was 'claiming' that experience and defining it for Indians. So imagine my surprise when Kim was, in fact, white. Now, certainly, there are some things he does that would definitely not fly today (think face paint and disguise) and shouldn't, but I thought it was an interesting part of the premise that Kim is a white boy who has lost his whiteness, so to speak. Let me tell you a bit about Kim, whose Irish parents died and left him an orphan in India. 

A portrait of Kim
- Kim is known and referred to often as -'Friend of all the World' - which feels quite endearing, and is generally quite true. Kim's great power is his ability to comfortably inhabit multiple worlds simultaneously, and it's this quality that makes him an excellent potential spy. 

- Kim does not stand for other people's nonsense. I loved this line when the British men first decide they want to send him to a religious school for white boys: 

Kim smiled compassionately. If these men lay under the delusion that he would do anything that he did not fancy, so much the better. lolololz. 

- Kim is not one to trust things right away. 

Life as a Sahib was amusing so far; but he touched it with a cautious hand.

- Kim is reflective. 

I am Kim. This is the great world, and I am only Kim. Who is Kim? He considered his own identity, a thing he had never done before, till his head swam. He was one insignificant person in all this roaring whirl of India, going southward to he knew not what fate.

Above all, Kim is an adventurer. I loved how he disappeared into the fabric of India on his school holidays. Here's an example of how he spent one, recounted to his friend Mahbub Ali: 

 I stayed for a while with an old man near Umballa; anon with a household of my acquaintance in Umballa. With one of these I went as far as Delhi to the southward. That is a wondrous city. Then I drove a bullock for a teli (an oilman) coming north; but I heard of a great feast forward in Puttiala, and thither I went in the company of a firework-maker. It was a great feast (Kim rubbed his stomach). I saw Rajahs, and elephants with gold and silver trappings; and they lit all the fireworks at once, whereby eleven men were killed, my firework-maker among them, and I was blown across a tent but took no harm. Then I came back to the rel with a Sikh horseman, to whom I was groom for my bread; and so here.

On unfriends
At one point, one of Kim's buddies says this, of some men trying to kill him: They were unfriends of mine. I thought this was hilarious. Oh them? They're unfriends of mine. Nbd. Would-be assassins, you know, unfriends. 

On the te-rain
Okay, so I get that it's racist/problematic that this is part of Kipling's (a white man's) description of native Indians, but I still loved that several people made reference to the 'te-rain'. At one point, Kim rides it with his lama, and one man says to another, who looks hesitant: 

Do not be afraid. I remember the time when I was afraid of the te-rain.

It reminded me of my sister's ex-husband, who is from Sénégal, and how he was (/maybe still is) terrified to ride in elevators, because they were a bit like magic to him. I remember him telling a story of how he just stood there, watching people get on the elevator, when he was trying to apply for a job on an upper floor, and he couldn't quite will his feet to cross the threshold. What doesn't seem like magic when you're wholly unused to it?  

On the magic of writing
Speaking of magic, I loved this line, from Kim's education: 

Moreover - this was magic worth anything else - he could write.

At several earlier points in the novel, Kim wants to send letters to people, and he has to ask for someone to draft (and post) a letter for him, usually without any money to offer in return. Since Kim is wily and crafty, he manages to do this frequently without too much trouble, but he is delighted when the power to craft a letter lies within himself.  

On thinking in Hindi and dreaming in Hindustanee
One of the things I found most beautiful about Kim's coming of age was the way Kipling narrated his language processing. It reminded me that I was so pleased when, after several months living there (and several years of study prior) I finally dreamed in French, and I felt I had arrived, linguistically. Here's one example of this: 

So far Kim had been thinking in Hindi, but a tremor came on him, and with an effort like that of a swimmer before sharks, who hurls himself half out of the water, his mind leaped up from a darkness that was swallowing it and took refuge in - the multiplication-table in English!

On racism, sexism, classism, and all the other isms
I read a few articles after I finished Kim (as usual, I wanted to give it the chance for me to experience it on my own first) and several of them talked about how complex the issue of race and racism is in thinking about Kipling's work. Because while he says things like: 

'One can never fathom the Oriental mind.' 

and this:

'One must never forget that one is a Sahib, and that some day, when examinations are passed, one will command natives.'
 
He also playfully explores a tremendous variety of experiences in India, from Muslims, to Sikhs, to Hindus, to Jainists, to Buddhists, and his characters come from any number of castes, from lowest to highest. He also writes a few female characters who are not cookie-cutter stereotypes, but challenge notions of femininity, and on the whole, the most likable characters in the work (and the most nuanced) are all non-English/Indian. So we won't excuse or omit the concept that Kipling takes English occupation of India for granted as a 'fact', but we will grant that there are complexities in thinking this through. 

I was amused to read this on the copyright page of my copy: 

Note: This book is a product of its time and does not reflect the same views on race, gender, sexuality, ethnicity, and interpersonal relations as it would if it were written today. 

because I'd never seen it before. And at first, I thought, ah yes, as I thought, Kipling wrote some racist things in his time. But in reading it back, it feels like a weird excuse. Because if you think about it, we have tons of racists in today's society, and plenty of bigoted, intolerant people with troublesome views on gender, sexuality, ethnicity, etc. So I understand that they're trying to acknowledge that part of Kipling's apparent racism for us today is 'simply an expression of the status quo' from back then; but in that moment, it was also racist. And a book being written today doesn't make it free of any of those issues. So on the whole, I think the disclaimer is sort of useless.  

Lurgan Sahib
There were quite a few characters that came across Kim's path, and by the end, I had a hard time keeping up, but Lurgan Sahib was one of my favorites. He teaches Kim how to inhabit a variety of different identities, but when Kim first arrives and stays the night, his visit is not well received by Lurgan Sahib's servant boy. 

My boy is jealous, so I have put him in the corner and I shall not speak to him to-day. He has just tried to kill me. You must help me with the breakfast. He is almost too jealous to trust, just now.

and then later - Come out, and next time thy heart is troubled, do not try white arsenic quite so openly. Surely the Devil Dasim was lord of our table-cloth that day! It might have made me ill, child, and then a stranger would have guarded the jewels. LOLOLOl. I thought this exchange was fantastic. 

Phrases in the running for the title of this blob: 
  • It is all illusion.
  • Do ye both dream dreams?
  • He has gone back to the Road again for a while.
  • All the world may tell lies save thou and I.
  • There is no holding the young pony from the game.
  • One does not own to the possession of money in India. It was a real magic trick how much Kim accomplished over the course of this novel with absolutely no money to his name. Amusingly, when he did have money for his travels, he never admitted to having any, but rather begged and bartered his way to what he wanted. 
  • We be but two souls seeking escape.
  • The boat of my soul staggers.
  • These are the hills of my delight!
Lines I Liked
  • Golden, rose, saffron, and pink, the morning mists smoked away across the flat green levels. 
  • All India is full of holy men stammering gospels in strange tongues; shaken and consumed in the fires of their own zeal; dreamers, babblers, and visionaries: as it has been from the beginning and will continue to the end. I thought this line, and the exploration of a variety of sometimes warring faiths in India, was really interesting, especially having read some other works by Indian authors that deal with similar themes and similar complexities.
  • Together they set off through the mysterious dusk, full of the noises of a city below the hillside, and the breath of a cool wind in deodar-crowned Jakko, shouldering the stars. 
Well, blobbists, with that I will leave you! I'm off to bake some of the strawberries my family has brought me into a strawberry-rhubarb pie, and paint my nails rainbow for Pride. Onwards to Suzy's Decision, or something of that ilk. ;) 

Keep faith, keep safe, good night.

Monday, May 25, 2020

We can't stay here. Everywhere I go is dangerous!

Suite Française by Irène Némirovsky

Spoiler Alert: Plot Summary

Suite Française follows the trail of several interconnected groups of people living in France in the early years of World War II. Some, like the Péricands (Madame, Philippe, Hubert, Jacqueline, Bernard, Emmanuel, and Old Monsieur) are a family, made up of people of all ages who are bound by blood. Some, like the Michauds (Jeanne and Maurice) are a couple, bound by love, as well as the painful absence of their son, Jean-Marie. Some are connected through work (Corbin, who is the boss of the Michauds at the bank), others through intimacy (Corbin's mistress, Arlette Corbail; Florence, official mistress to Gabriel Corte). Some are artists, like Gabriel, a writer. Others are kept busy protecting their own finances (Charles Langelet). Sometimes our characters come across each other; some times they travel on disparate paths. 

What they have in common is their experience of a unique period in national (and global) history, from the initial exodus from Paris during the bombings, to the tenuous 'peace' of occupied France. Theirs was a kind of limbo not so dissimilar from ours, and, like us, they did not know when (or if) it would end. 

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Dear blobbists, 

    I finished reading this book quite some time ago, but I was sitting on it and marinating in it. It was a beautiful book, but certainly also heavy to digest, given the circumstances. Irène Némirovsky was a Russian Jew living in France in World War II. She was, for all intents and purposes, a Frenchwoman; they were members of the Catholic church (Jewish only by blood), they had lived in France for many years, and she was a famous writer. She began Suite Française as a series of five books; the two sections that survived were parts I and II. She lived in central France with her husband and two daughters, and while they were able to stay under the radar for a few years, eventually first Irène, and then her husband, were taken to concentration camps and murdered. 
    The work survived because Irène's daughter carried the suitcase containing it from one place to another, and eventually brought it to publication. We are not to know what the last three parts would have contained. We have notes, glimpses, a sense of the arc, but nothing more. This struck me for several reasons; in particular, I'm working on a literary work of my own, and, like Irène, plan for it to contain five parts. Her five (designed to be like movements in a musical piece): 

Storm
2 Dolce
Captivity
Battles? 
Peace?

Feel not so dissimilar from my five planned novels (also designed to mimic the movements of a piece of music; in my case, Shostakovich's 8th string quartet): 

1 Terminus
2 Harbinger
3 Reclamation
4 Fealty
5 Reckoning

It is perhaps not a mistake that the third section, Captivity, was where she left off when she was taken?It felt strange to me that I read her work, 2 and the beginning of 3 complete, just when I am at the same place in my work, 2 written, 3 beginning. 

In any case, maybe you are beginning to understand why I have taken my time with this one. In case it wasn't clear, I thought this was a spectacular work, and would highly recommend. My thoughts, in no real order:

I loved this line, from when a German soldier plays the piano in the home of French women with whom he is stationed: 

Music alone can abolish differences of language or culture between two people and evoke something indestructible within them. 

There were so many moments that reminded me of the current situation with the pandemic, and many places where you could have swapped out war references for COVID seamlessly. This one stood out to me: 

All in all, it's only the initial shock that counts. People get used to everything. 

Other moments that reminded me of this moment
Gabriel Corte, the writer, on the war:
It threatened much more than his lifestyle or peace of mind. 
It continually destroyed the world of the imagination, the only world where he felt happy. Have you struggled with this, readers? I certainly have. I've had a hard time escaping to creative, imaginative worlds. I think in my case, the best imaginative leaps come from a deeply tethered, safe grounding in reality. Perhaps the absence of this safe ground is what challenges my ability to create, to dream. 

This line - Panic was intensifying, spreading like wildfire - made me think of the general and initial response. 

This line, from Arlette - Please, dear God, let all this chaos end quickly! Please let us get back to a normal way of life, whatever it might be. How many times have I had this thought in the last few weeks? 

And this one, which sums it up:
We don't really understand what is going on. These events will have an unimaginable impact, believe me, unimaginable. People's lives will be changed for generations. 

Seasons
I think I've said before I'd like to live in a world of Pasternak's weather, and perhaps co-scripted by Murasaki's seasons. I think Némirovksy joins the list. One of my favorite things about this work was the way it described the kind of painful, transient normalcy of the seasons changing amidst the chaos. Here are a few of my favorites:
  • The tender June day persisted, refusing to die. 
  • The sky was shining with the kind of brilliant, silvery light you sometimes find in the middle of a truly beautiful day; an almost imperceptible iridescent mist hovered in the air and all the fresh colours of June were intensified, looked richer and softer, as if reflected through a prism.
  • The short June night was fading. The stars grew paler, the air smelled of milk and moist grass; now, half-hidden behind the forest, only the pink tip of the moon could be seen, growing dimmer and dimmer in the mist.
What is essential?
I loved this line, from Madame Péricand - She tried in vain to close the suitcase. No, something definitely had to go. But what? Everything was essential. I always wonder what I would consider essential in an emergency. I would probably try to take every book I own and stuff them in my car with my cat and my cello. Which wouldn't leave much room for essentials like food, camping gear, etc. Ah well. Let's just cross our fingers this doesn't come to be. 

Amusingly, the Péricands' (or at least, the younger Péricands) also consider their cat, Albert, to be essential. 

He slips out into the night to explore, and this was one of my favorite scenes:

At the end of a branch he began a savage, arrogant dance, taunting in his bold, warlike way, the sky, the earth, the animals, the moon. Now and again he opened his deep, narrow mouth and let out a piercing miaow, a sharp, provocative call to all the cats nearby.

French Connection
I didn't mention this above, but the other thing that made this work feel intimate to me was that it took place almost exactly when my grandmother, a sixteen-year-old girl, left Paris with her family to come to America, precisely because the Germans were occupying the country. So in a way, this felt like the literary actualization of 'what if she/they had stayed? There were also quite a few farm scenes, which made me think of our family farm, Rosehaven. Like this:

The smell of grass, milk and wild mint drifted in from the doorway.

War vs. Occupation
I'm not sure I've ever read a work about a country being occupied by another one. I've certainly read many books where a government experiences a coup, or books that take place during war times, but I think this was the first time I read a book about one country's soldiers living in, and almost settling in, to the ways and habits of another country. At one point, they mention the fact that all the clocks were set to German time (an hour's difference) and that seemed so jarring to me. I suppose maybe this was more common long ago, when the Roman empire would expand and just decide that land of one country was now part of the 'empire'. There's something weirdly gaslight-y about changing the time. I can't quite say why. 

I thought this line summed up the difference well:
War...yes, everyone knows what war is like. But occupation is more terrible in a way, because people get used to one another.

Lines I Liked
  • She needed a voice of authority to tell her what to believe. 
  • He was intoxicated by his imaginings. 
  • In the darkness the danger seemed to grow. You could smell the suffering in the air, in the silence.
  • Here, between the roots and the pebbles, were smells untainted by the scent of humans, smells that had yet to waft into the air and vanish. They were warm, secretive, eloquent. Alive. 
  • Everywhere, everywhere you look, chaos, cowardice, vanity, and ignorance! What a wonderful race we are!
  • [Charlie] was like a cat by nature, quickly becoming attached to places where he'd been well treated. 
In running for title of this blob:
  • The village was reduced to a roar.
  • The world was a horrible dream. 
  • I'm not just anyone.
Referents and Reverberations
This book reminded me of a few other books. This moment, from one of her characters: 

He wrote with a chewed-up pencil stub, in a little notebook which he hid against his heart. He felt he had to hurry: something inside him was making him anxious, was knocking on an invisible door. By writing, he opened that door, he gave life to something that wished to be born. 

and this line, from her own notes about writing:
I must create something great and stop wondering if there's any point. 

Both reminded me of the way Proust described his writing, and the way he worried he wouldn't be able to finish it. 

I bore within me as by something fragile and precious which had been entrusted to me and which I should have liked to deliver intact into the hands of those for whom it was intended, hands which were not my own.

But for me was there still time? Was it not too late?

And when Madame Angellier hoards the key to the library and tries to keep it safe from the Germans, I was reminded of several other scenes from Fahrenheit-451, the moment in Don Quixote when they burn his library, and the scenes from the Name of the Rose centered on the protection of the library. Perhaps I am not so unique in feeling my books are essential, after all? ;)

Well. This has been a somewhat heavy blob to write, which, as I've said, is perhaps why I took so long to write it. I'll leave you with some lightness, to balance out the heft of this. 

I liked this line (and to be clear, I recognize that pandemics and wars are not interchangeable, and while we have faced a variety of scary things, it is not the same as the constant threat of violence): 

Living constantly in fear of death like this was only bearable if you took one day at a time, if you said to yourself each evening, "Another twenty-four hours when nothing really bad has happened, thank God! Let's see what tomorrow brings." 

I also liked Arlette's comment: 
We have to live to see the better times, first and foremost we have to live.  Primum vivere.

And last, but not least, I loved this moment, when the Michauds return to their Paris apartment. It brought tears to my eyes, because I want the world to feel like this again. 

Everything seemed secretive, friendly and sweet, as if a voice had whispered from the shadows, 'We were expecting you. Everything is as it should be.'

So, dear blobbists, keep faith, keep each other safe, keep passing the open windows, and Primum vivere. Let's see what tomorrow brings, shall we?